Today is the day I wnt to the Doc's and told the truth.. and I am so relieved. I dont like to talk too much about my mental health stuff, but at the same time I want help and need it. I hate talking about it, cause then I feel so ashamed, I hate it. But I want help cause the way I am now, I ignore myself so much so I wont have to face myself. But I end up ignoring the people that are most special to me. Any how, I am a strange one lol.. but I will get better I hope.