Thank you for reading, 50guy and Vetswife. I do appreciate the feedback.

There's really nothing to "do" out here. I live in the country. I'm close enough to town to drive in to the gym everyday, but to go back and forth would definitely put me through a couple of tanks of gas a week.. I simply can't do that.

I wish I "felt like" engaging in something. Anything I do has to be alone and to be honest, that's just no fun at all. I no longer view my gardening as enjoyment.... it's a chore that I do begrudginly. I do it so I have fresh veggies and spices with which to cook.

I spoke with the doctor's office. Any rx request takes 72 hours. So in a few days I'll be able to pick up meds.

I really want to be occupied, but I can't find the..... the... "will" to want to.

I can't even seem to spend the time in prayer that I used to (I really miss my old church).

I just keep thinking "I gotta get outta here".... and there's no where to run. I hate the way this makes my body feel. My legs feel icky all the time and my neck always feels tight.... I just want it to stop already.

Again.. thanks for responding. It's really good to know that someone heard me.

L