((((((((((((((earthmama)))))))))))))

It does not sound like DID to me either, but the dissociation spectrum is continuous and one can be anywhere on the line. I think it's great that you trust T and feel safe enough with him that you are able to share a very vulnerable part of yourself.

Orange has some great links to check out. Hopefully they will help you figure out what's going on.

How wonderful that you are able to nurture yourself and that T is as well. It sounds like you are making some awesome progress. Good luck with everything.