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thankyou ...... i will order it from amazon, do you know who it is by???spose there will be only one with that title .... I'm sort of glad you understand where i am coming from, but not that you had to go thu it, if you get my drift ..... sometimes it's so easy for others to just say ... well do this this and this, believe in x y and z and you'll be fine .... it's not so simple ..... sometimes i wish it were simple to explain what it's like being a 'victim' of such awful crimes ..... how it affects every sense of your being ...... and how being positive is fine, but sometimes you can't find that positivity, you know, some days ....... i always felt people thought i was feeling sorry for myself .... sometimes here i feel the same way.... i DONT feel sorry for myself ...... i am just trying to heal, and the words come out in so many different ways .....

jin x