thanks for all the support everyone...we had a long serious discussion last night...a rollercoaster ride of emotions. She begged me to leave her at once, and though i promised to never leave her, i told her that id give her space, and that my heart isnt going anywhere. I told her that id be just a phone call away if she needed me for anything, and that geographical distance was going to be the only thing changing...temporaily. i asked her to take good care of our puppy, and that id leave first thing in the morning.

...the responst i got from this was not the way i expected, she seemed to get even more upset...saying things like "why dont you just leave and never come back".."if you walk out that door, im never talking to you for the rest of my life". it all seemed to contradict herself. first she wanted me gone, then she threatens me with the relationship.......well to make a long story short...i decided that giving her space was what we needed...and i told her just that.

what happened next was her breaking down and confessing to me how much she reallly loved me and that she never wanted me to leave. She then realized that she needed to see that she could push me away, and that me walking out the door was possible...we hugged and kissed...and it truely was one of the most happiest moments.

however i know that this happiness might not last, and that her depression may kick in anytime, but at least now i have a whole ton of new energy for whatever has to come. thanks again guys for your support...i will keep updating on our situation.