Healing hurts jin. It's the hardest thing I've ever done, going through the process, but also the most rewarding. You can't turn back now. You just can't. There is relief ahead. Can you see me waving to you at the finish line? I'm rooting for you. You will get there in your own time.

You have a lot of tears, years and years worth, that need to come out and it's hard to do when you're so disconnected. Emotions get all mixed up and up is down and mad is glad. It's part of the process I'm afraid.

Can you reach out and call T? I think that will help. Even if you can leave a message and know that she heard you're in distress.

((( safe hugs )))