Hello, I can't believe I'm here and posting anything. I was diagnosed back in '92 and spent 9 years in intensive therapy leading to quite a bit of integration. My therapist left her practice and I was left on my own. I have tried to keep the few remaining alters quiet and not acting out. I've gone on with my life. I find myself in an awesome recovery group for codependency and have made a lot of progress. The problem that draws me here is knowing I need a sponsor. I quit sharing my reality with people many years ago. So I am honest only to that point. 12 Step programs demand a high level of honesty. I have lost my two dearest friends in the past year. The two people who knew me, all about me. Now I am alone. I can't bring myself to share this part of my life with anyone. Yet that has led to a deep loneliness. An obstacle to deep meaningful relationships. I am looking for encouragement, understanding and perhaps any insights any of you may have. Thanks for reading this even if you have no thoughts for me.