Please listen to me, don't know if I should even be doing this but I am alone and can't tell anyone I know IRL.

I was aware that my partner had a sex site that he visited. But just now, looking through the computers history I saw all the names that the sites are called.

They are crude and upsetting. I know they exist but just seeing it in black and white has really upset me. I do not have a sex drive as of past 2-3 years so when I first found out about the sex site I thought 'well, he needs an outlet somewhere, etc...' but deep down it saddens me.

Its because of me we hardly have any sex life so I shouldn't get upset really. But when I was small I was called these words and I hate them. I really hope you don't think what I am saying is not appropriate but I need to share it.

What do I do ? I feel sick and am trying so hard not to see my partner as a sleazy person. I don't know whether to mention this or just leave it.

Any support or comfort needed, I am so sorry.

Poppet (((((((((((hugs to all))))))))))