I totally understand.
Part of me is craving compliments and acceptance, and then when they do come they make me uncomfortable. I feel like if someone praises me, then there is just further for me to fall..so a compliment turns into pressure in my head.

I've talked with T about this, and he said it has to do with my fear of people abandoning me.
When someone compliments me, that brings me closer to them. The closer I am with someone, the worse it will hurt if they abandon me.

I hope that makes sense. It is something I'm still working on fully comprehending.

BTW -- excellent work on the food journal and vision board! I might just have to borrow your idea on the vision board and do that for myself.


Owl