I too have struggled with wondering why I have had to live with/through depression for the past 10 years. If you are able to concentrate and do some reading, The Purpose Driven Life, helped me come to the reallization that I may not know the whole answer until I arrive in Heaven.

But I did decide that there are at least a couple of reasons I had to go through this. First is to be able to help others who are also suffering. And to be able to teach those who haven't suffered and don't understand how to treat those who do.

Maybe this poem I wrote will give you some ray of hope too.

The Plan

Trees standing tall reaching up to the light
Limbs stark and bare against the gray, gloomy sky
Some strong and straight, others gnarled and bent
All formed to give shelter, by His wondrous plans,
To all of God’s creatures, great and quite small.

Night skies lit with diamonds
Fields carpeted with dew
Rainbows sparkling with color
His wonders abound, both known and unknown
His gifts to His children, if only we’ll see.

When all around there is beauty and signs of rebirth
Why am I filled with such sadness and pain?
When the winds of a storm blow strong through my life
Will I stand straight and tall or be stunted and small?
Will I bend as the willow or crack and crumble to dust?

When my soul is gripped by these dark unknowns
And my mind struggles to find the quiet and peace
I find strength through the Father and pray every night
That tomorrow I’ll see just one little glimpse
Of what He has planned for this one tiny person – just me.


Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to propser you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."