Echoes, yes that is true. I wonder if I unconsioulsy pick people that I have no real intimate need for, but want to see if I have the "power" to keep them? Though it sounds crazy, its that feeling when somone first leaves that I seem to be deeply invested in? LIke I'm constantly trying to make it not matter? and whilst this is going on I completely neglect/forget those that are still around me? I know how painful that place is that you are in.