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I want to feel there, in the moment.

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I'm looking for the same thing, not just in therapy but in any interaction.

I wish I had some ideas for you. The closest I've come to expressing my emotions was when I had 2 beers the other week. I was given a long acting version of Propranolol to try for controlling my BP. My pdoc had suggested it because it also helps with anxiety. Well I quickly found out that Propranolol and even just a little bit of alcohol do not mix well for me. I experienced a rapid and very intense episode of depressive feelings. It scared the crap out of me. I couldn't handle these feelings and just went immediately to bed. I would not suggest this method of tapping into you emotions.

I am also working on being present. I've noticed that even when I am alone my expressions are still dampened. No matter what, I seem to have a tight grip on the volume dial.

Sorry I don't have any good suggestions for you.