I too, relate to this. I grew up with a family that was full of addictions. You name it...it was in my family. I was the youngest and perhaps the most "sane", if you will. I was the strong one. At least that is what everyone thought. Now, at 40 years of age, I feel totally insane. I am trying to work through my issues, but in therapy I revert back to the child I was. Never showing emotion in regards to my feelings. I just can't let anyone see how desparate I feel inside.

I think I will try what Miss Char. suggested. When I notice that I am holding back to at least admit it and see where it goes from there.