Well, I hope. So keep your fingers crossed for me.

I did not end up getting the job I interviewed for a couple of weeks ago. And of course today, I had another panic attack at work about hating the job. Thankfully this happened when nobody else was around. I know, bad, but I hate people trying to get into things like this with me. Especially since I know a lot of people are not going to understand.

Okay, that last paragraph was negative, but things have gotten a bit better. So, my boss at work gave me the contact information for the person who is in charge of a video production company, and that does produce local television and commercials. So, me being a chicken, emailed him yesterday about maybe possibly being interested in working there and seeing if they could use me. Well, I got a response back, and he's going to call me on Monday. Okay, it might end up not being what I want to hear, but at least now I don't feel like I wasted my time contacting this person, and he didn't think I was a complete loser, since he does plan to get in touch with me.

Oh yeah, and if anyone wants to read a book I am finding interesting, read "When Panic Attacks." It's by David D. Burns, who is a doctor. He wrote this book as drug-free therapy. So far I am finding it helpful. I'll admit, I don't always like doing the writing exercises because I sometimes can't think of something to write about, but it really has helped me in the past week. Heck, I did one exercise I was dreading today, and ended up feeling better and laughing about how stupid my pessimism sounds. I really know, and need to keep telling myself that there is no such list as a "Do Not Hire" list, and my name is not on the top of it.