I didn't know where to post this. I am in my 50's and have suffered from obsessions and depression for as long as I can remember. My father was profoundly depressed and obsessive and I spent several years watching him just sit in his room.

For my whole life I have eitherf had his very same obsessions and panic attcks or feared them and engaged in phobic avoidance. I have done many kinds of therapy and spent five years in a mens group.

I am ashamed by his behavior. I shame myself in fearing that I am like him. Lots of medication makes me functional, sort of, but is there any escape...do others live under the shadow of a very, very sick father? Don