What the hell is wrong with me??

Why do I keep worrying about not having an anxiety attack. This is rediculous.

I feel like for the last few weeks I have been doing OK. No major problems, a few snags here and there but nothing I feel I couldn't handle.
Until today. Well, I actually think it started with a post I made last night. I meant well by the post. It was about something that is quite painful for me to talk about. I felt to in order to take a step forward that I needed to share what I was going through regarding this issue. Now I wish I hadn't.


I keep worrying about having an attack because this post made me feel things I haven't felt in a long time. I have actually concentrated and anylized my feelings to see if I was even close to having a panic attack. It's almost as if I this cloud hanging over my head.
I can't stop it. I don't know why.
I came home from work today and fell asleep. When I woke, I felt a little disoriented. I guess feling like this made my mind spiral out of control into the abyss of panicking thoughts. My eyes got really blurry, I got scared and it was getting more difficult for me to breathe. I thought "OMG, THIS IS IT" "I'M DYING".
Then as I started to worry about that, my husband and kids were talking and lauging (they didn't know I was having an attack) and I tried to concentrate on them but it didn't work. After several minutes I settled down but in the mists of this my OCD was kickin in and the intrusive thoughts were rearing their ugly head. I haven't had these thoughts in sp long that it scared me and now I feel like I'm going to relapse..........I don't want to....I'm really scared about this.

I don't know what to do. I feel like I have come a long way since a few months ago but not nearly back to the person I used to be. Just starting to fell like I've reached 55% of my old self. I dont want to move backwads. I want to move forward. What is happening to me?