You know, I feel your pain. It is difficult, very difficult. I lie awake at night wondering how long I can go on like this. Nothing helps me either. I've been on everything under the sun and they only make me numb....not better...but worse in some ways.
I'd be interested in finding out about the Orthomolecular Psychiatry....
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Smooches! Hope you have a Beautiful, Blessed Day!
Thyroid disorders can cause depression and can mimic bipolar disorder... Please read below regarding one form, hypothyroidism, and have your numbers checked...TSH, T3, T4, Free T3, Free T4, and Thyroid Antibodies (for Graves Disease and Hashimotos Disease (which mimics BP)