You need to find a T who makes you feel important. You need to feel that they care, else how can you work with them effectively. It has nothing to do with fact, but everything to do with perception. Start calling around and do the "telephone interview" with therapists, it will give you back a bit of power and take away the desperate / hopeless feeling that "I need them and they don't care". Not saying you have to find a new therapist, but sometimes just the act of looking takes the pressure off.