Ah. Well... Someone or other (can't remember who) said something about how we have rage... And only the objects (people) who survive that onslaught are considered 'worthy'. There was something about that... Can't quite remember it...

Because your response is just one (of many possible) responses, you see. Sometimes... I feel immense compassion for my therapist when I sense a weakness / vulnerability. I step in to nurture him quite willingly (verbally, I mean) and while I'm doing that... I guess I imagine someone soothing and nurturing me in the same way. Or maybe physically holding me, even.

Do you have some kinds of needs / desires like that? Do you find them... As repulsive in yourself as you do in your therapist? Are you repulsed by perceived weakness more generally? Does it make you feel anxious? That things can be so easily hurt / damaged?

Even though your therapist might have been having a hard time of it... She may still pull through yet. Give her a chance?