Trying,
Thank you for your post. I don't think it's so much that I'm panicking about not panicking. Maybe it was a pore choice of words. I do think that the post from last night triggered some feelings in me that I have not felt in a long time. Thank you for reading it. I am sorry that you have lost your friend as well. Losing someone you love is very difficult. I don't think it is strange that you wanted to call her and tell her that the weekend was beautiful. In a way it's almost as if that special person is with you even when they are not.

Thanks.