(((((((((Kiya))))))))) I sometimes think the grass is greener on the no co-conscious side, even though I'm there lol. But T keeps talking about things (that are true when I seriously think about them) that are negative and that if I were co-conscious, at least to some degree, would be better.

I do know if I am in a mode where I am in and out of my brain so much, I can't get anything done. Those times are very confusing and frustrating and I wish I would just leave for a while or stay for a while so it can get done.

It would be nice, wouldn't it, if we had the choice of when to check out and when to stay? I keep thinking, if the brain is so smart to do what it's doing for survival, can't it be at my command? lol.

Hang in there.