ok... well i completely understand where you are with not wanting to talk about the abuse... i often get to that place... but i have found that my t is right that i need to talk about it to process the information... as a matter of fact there is something in the way the brain processes information that makes saying it out loud very important... and takes the power out of the memory... what i have found helpful for me is that i write it in my journal and then let my t read it... then it is easier for me to talk about... he use to have me read it to him first... until he figured out that i was editing my work so to speak... anyway i want to encourage you to work on this with your t and find away to begin to tell your t or another safe person ... i know how hard it is... take gentle care... lyn