I'm having a review for social securty disability done. when i first went on it 5 yrs ago my dx was PTSD. i called t regarding dx and what to put (hoping he would keep it the same) and he stated that DID is dx and that his paperwork and SSD's paperwork should match.

i don't know what that bothered me so bad. i got scared and started to cry. it's not that i'm ashamed or anything. i've told NO ONE IRL. knowing that more ppl will know makes me feel very vulnerable and scared. i don't know why it's so scary and makes me feel so vulnerable

i should add, just before that the maternal unit called demanding answers about molestation. i held my own very well and told her that i wasn't prepared to talk to her about such issues. she was livid. she wanted to use it against my abuser right now because she's angry with him. once again...the pawn. once again...it brings back the memories and one specific one...when i TOLD HER!!!!!!!!!!! ugh ugh ugh.

kd