Thank you everyone for replying - it really means so much to me for you to all make an effort to reply to my little post. I'm sorry that i'm so bad by taking so long to get back here...i want to get the words just right but i realise now that will never happen so i'm just taking the plunge so please forgive the delay!

Candy - i do it too when i get angry for not meeting my own expectations - it is good to hear from someone that really hits the nail on the head! Thankyou!!

The wedding was actually really lovely, it was interesting for one reason and another. It has been a rather hectic week with 2 birthdays and 2 graduations in our family so i have been holding on rather tightly, but i've made it through without too much damage

thank you for all your kind words, it is really appreciated. Sending you all lots of loving hugs.