Miss Charlotte, it might help you to not look at the connection as this huge thing that you have to sustain. Maybe look at it in little parts. I know that when I thought I could sustain the whole connection, I also thought I had made his over this big hurdle in therapy-- only to be let down again when I felt disconnected from him. T told me that it is okay to be in the middle-- that the connections I was able to sustain with him mattered very much because they existed... but that sometimes it is going to be harder. I also think in extremes-- either the connection is sustained, or I fall apart. However, that's not always the case.... you can be somewhere in the middle... T understands that... I know that when I'm frustrated with myself, I automatically assume that T must be frustrated, too.

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