<font color="blue"> Jenn,

There were years when I could not read a description of a panic attack without having an attack.

As I got better, I still couldn't discuss problems without triggering a panic attack. If a discussion upset me, it eventually led to an attack.

After that, I became much better, but I was haunted by the fear of having an attack. You see, there was a huge void in my life that previously had been filled by the panic attacks. Somethiing was wrong...something didn't feel right, because not having panic attacks felt so different.

It was suddenly like my favorite dress was too small, or too big, or too something. It just wasn't right.

Maybe you are still waiting for the panic attacks because you have a void like I do.

I'm not sure this makes sense, but I hope this helps at least a little bit.

January </font>