JohnShaft, I kind of think you are in a position in life very much like I am.

I'm starting to look at things differently and I feel more positive but that doesn't mean the depression is gone, not by a long shot.

From what I've read of your posts, you are doing much better with women than I ever have and it would be a big step for me if I could get to that point.

I've already learned that "normal" people have their share of trouble but they are just better at hiding it.

I would never want to be normal.