Thanks for sharing. Im really glad you did. Thank you. I think you are such a wonderful supportive person. Im sorry about what happened to you. It sucks. I know the feeling of good turning bad.I get afraid of it also. My emdr therapists tells me to remember that those feelings are from the past. I used to think I caused bad things to happen also. Again my emdr therapists says thats what kids do.It just a coping skill they have. Some of us have never stopped thinking that way. I know sharing is hard and I want you to know I read your post and understand the risk you took writing it.Good job. I wish we lived closer I would bring over balloons and cake and we can celebrate the sharing of the secrets. Its a huge step. ((HUGS))