Thanks everyone.



But I feel like such &%#@ today and I don't see how/why I matter and I want to curl up and hide and just disappear. Friends are over to look after me, I still feel so alone. Sad and angry at life.

GF in hospital, every 'what if' running through my mind. I miss Vlad today. I wish he was here.

I hate having someone I love in hospital. My mind tells me all the worst things that could happen.

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