now there is the biggest reason, outside of abandonment fears possibly, for fears about termination. i haven't heard anyone say that they fear not knowing what to do with the extra money. Most of us struggle with the costs in some way. i have to pay out of pocket for all but $200 (dont even go there). It's crushing.. but the alternative is frequent hospitalization or death. Hardly a choice. What would be the cost of not being able to function? But yeah, i worry a LOT about being able to pay for it. It has happened more than a few times that i have worried about starting a topic because i didnt want to just open a fresh can of worms and be left alone with it.

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