After much... going back and forth.. I got my notes.. and.. she had doctored them.. so there was really nothing there... stacks.. of notes... from 4 years.. saying depression up... depression down...

I did get a copy.. of notes from an ENT.. and flipped.. because he said.. I seemed.. to be "all over the place" with my emotions.. I went from.. x.. to y.. to z.. to p...

well... since I am DID... I was switching...

my advice.. is shred.. them... move on...

my T of 4 years had terminated me via e-mail.. of all things... not even in person...
and.. reading.. even the ENT specialest notes.. hurt... though I understood.. the "why".. because of the DID.... but... it still hurt.. and wasn't worth it...

if she terminated you... without an explaination... just perhaps... the notes.. aren't all the valuable.. because they came from her..

and.. I am sorry... it is so so so hurtful to be terminated like that... it has been 2 years for me.. with a good therapist... and I am getting over it...