i'm perfectly fine during the day...no bad thoughts, no reoccuring thoughts either...im fine...but the minute i lay my head down to sleep and i close my eyes, the thoughts begin
firstly for about quite a few months now i have closed my eyes and have felt myself putting a gun under my chin and releasing the trigger. but its not like i acutally kill myself....and the thought just keeps going and going over and over....it makes me wanna just open my eyes, which i do.
then thers the thought of cutting myself (which ive never done before) i imagine myself doing it...and cant stop thinking about it....i finally, the other night, had to text my friend and tell her what was going on just to get it out of my head....
im not sure what to do or say at this point...these thoughts shouldnt be happening nor plaguing my dreams

-sarah, i suppose i just need advice at this point