Maybe, but it think it's really more likely that I become judgmental of myself and I project those feelings onto him.

It is with him that I have begun to integrate the affect I left behind a long time ago. And I slip back into old territory when I am not with him. BUT I am noticing this now, so that is progress. However, this morning when I first made this post I was not noticing and was very low and sad.

Feeling a little better now -- it's getting closer to Tuesday!

Sigh