I haven't been on here in a while.

I haven't cut in a while, either. Not sure about the time frame, but at least years. And now theres a knife and a razor in my bathroom that I had my hands on and I don't know what to do. I didn't cut yet. I don't want to cut, but I want to so bad...but I know I'll just feel worse afterwards. Why am I even considering this? What clicks the wrong way that makes me feel like this is an option? I feel so desperate. I don't want to do this. I don't know what to do anymore. I just wanted to write this out somewhere. I just want an out.