Hi Luce,

So glad to see there are others here past the chaos of discovery, past the anger, confusion, and resistance. My life is pretty peaceful yet there is often the loneliness of not being able to be completely real with others. Feeling like I have to hide part of who I am to be safe puts a distance between me and others and I don't know how to bridge that gap

I tried other sites a few years ago and it seemed that only the folks in the discovery stage wanted to share at all so I gave up. Although I like encouraging others I needed encouragement also and didn't find it.

Not all of my alters integrated, it was left up to them to choose, so I still feel their feelings when they come close to the surface, and I hear them especially if they are troubled. Something can still fall out of my mouth that I know wasn't me.

I still have triggers as we all do, but the handful of remaining alters still have some triggers too and that can be a challenge to deal with at times. My friends often think I'm moody and even stand-offish at times and I can't explain any of it to them.

To folks in the discovery stage this must all sound trivial but it's where I am. I have a good life but really look forward to a few friends who would understand those challenges.

Thanks so much for your reply!

Judee