(((((((purplebutterfly ))))))))))))))
i see by your post you are really hurting
contacting someone
calling the help line i think is a great idea
calling your Dr?
things sound like they have gotten worse for you
remember self care comes first...
seeking help at this point imo would be a good idea
being in a safe place sounds very good to me for you.
please know i care and would like to see you safe.
know you can talk here
we are all listening and you do matter here
muffy