Sweet Jinnyann;
I am so sorry you feel so low, I know how you feel about the black hole, but things will get better and try not to be so hard on yourself, your body needs to heal. Are you seeing a counselor or on any meds?

From the book, by Ruth Fishel.

There is no winter harsh enought to withhold the promise of spring.
by Karen Kaiser clarke

No matter how badly we feel, it is only for now. When in deep pain or confusion, we often think it will be that way forever, that we can never feel better. When in the depths of darkness and despair, it can be hard to remember there will be light again.
There are so many lessons in the cycles of nature. Sometimes they might sound trite but truth is really that simple.

Dawn does follow night, Always. Spring does follow winter, Always. No matter how dark the night has been, no matter how harsh the winter has been, we too, change as to the seasons.

I can go through anything a day at a time, a moment at a time with the faith and the knowledge that my Higher Power is guilding me to peace and security.