Sarahxxkristine;

I also have thoughts and dreams like that, I have to leave the tv on to something none violent or too noise, but it helps me to take my mind off of them so I can sleep. I also try to picture myself on a desserted island, near the water just relaxing, listening to the water, watch birds or other animals, sometimes that helps. You did great calling someone to help you, maybe you can release the pain into a dairy, which is another way to release the feeling it you can't call anyone.

Good luck, pleasant dreams and sweet thoughts!