I love you all so much. I know they love me, but how can i keep this up .... i truly have no interest in anything .... sounds selfish, we have a holiday coming up in 2 weeks, less than 2 weeks ..... I dont want to go ..... i just havent the energy to smile even right now ... we are staying with Tonys sister this year, my daughter will just a street away, our friends are coming and all their kids .... hardly even speak to her any more ..... it's so much effort ..... i have to go to therapy on public transport tomorrow .... my son has to take me .... how pathetic is that ....... i dont do public transport, i hate it, it reminds me of when i was a teen.
panic attacks ..... thankyou sor replying, it means so much. Think i need to talk to Tony about how i am feeling ..... i'm trying to keep it all inside and i dont think they know how bad this is ...... i wish they would go away on holiday and leave me in hospital or something ...... IDK ....... Jin x