Hey! I remember you from the depression chat last night. While I may not be a 14 year old boy, I really understand and can relate to everything you just said.

While you obviously would have to go see a therapist about your feelings, it seems to me like you were just having a panic attack. And yes, those are very scary. However, you may just feel unreal, but as long as you realize you are still functioning, you will be fine. Believe me, I've had some to the point where I felt like I was dying, but once I got up and was walking around, I realized I was going to be okay, and it passed.

And remember, depression is not your fault. It may feel like it is, but it isn't. All you really need is to find positive thoughts to cancel out the negative thoughts. If you would be interested, I would be glad to email you some writing exercises I have been doing, that seem to help me when I'm upset. They only take about 10 minutes too. And you also do not have to share them with anyone if you are uncomfortable with that right now.

And honestly, I don't want to sound like a downer, but being 14 is tough. Actually, that whole phase from junior high all the way though junior year of high school is rough. It may not be that your friends really think you are crazy, it's just difficult for them to understand at a young age. Just remember, it is you who can change the way you feel.