Thank you for your words...

Acutally it WAS really hard to move on to my husband. But he was amazingly patient.

He liked me right away, and slowly got to know me. I really liked the fact he was willing to move so slow.

I was terrified to touch him, I can't really pinpoint the WHY, but I was afraid to hug him, and there was NO way I could kiss him.

I was so afraid of my ex, I saw him in this new man. But he was so patient. He tried so hard, and waited. He never forced himself on me in any way, and eventually I relaxed enough to give him a hug... every once and a while as I was leaving.

Then I relaxed enough to hold his hand... Maybe for a few seconds.

I remember the day that I kissed him... I was so scared, but I gave him a quick peck on the lips and jumped into my car.

After that, I started to relax around him even more, I was able to admit that I loved him, and when he asked me to marry him, I said YES.

As for the false allegtions... I am SO ANGRY. I used to have EXTREAME anger issues as a teenager, and I got over those... until now.

I am SO ANGRY. I feel the anger burning in my chest... It makes me hate everyone. (exception is my son)

I am ashamed to admit it, but it even makes me want NOTHING to do with my stepson... whom, before this, I would have gone to the ends of the earth for. He calls me Mommy, and I thought of him as "son".