I went to T and made like everything is OK. I tell BF everything is ok and laugh and smile all the time. I tell work everything is ok, but it's not.

I am really sad...depressed...scared...everything all at once.

I am so scared to let anyone know what's wrong because everyone thinks I am doing soooo good and that I am finally allowing myself to heal, but inside I am so torn up. I cry in my car, I cry in my shower...anywhere no one I know can see me.

I sure hope no one finds out.......