I'm using 60 mg cymbalta in AM, 12.5 mg Ambien at bedtime, and my anxiety builds throughout the day so I must take .125 mg of xanax several times a day or I would jump out of my skin. Instead of getting better, the anxiety part of my MDD is getting worse. I can't cope and I'm thinking about checking out of life a WHOLE lot more. I hate my job, and hubby & I are leaving for a 2 week cruise in 1 week so I don't want to end up in a hospital and ruin everything for him. I'm just so very tired of feeling this way and never knowing how I'll feel from day to day. There is no more normal. I feel like the real me has been swallowed up and doesn't know how to claw herself out. My Psych says it will take some time, but I'm afraid it wont come before I can't stand it anymore. What should I do to help myself in the meantime? Any ideas are appreciated.