Thank you...giving this all the thought that you have.. shows what a caring, compassionate person that you are...

I was not going to put a post out.. like this on pedophiles because it triggers others... yet.. I was "triggered" myself.. and I needed support... very much.. and.. I guess I decided.. that I matter enough to.. put the post out here..
It was done.. in the spirit of my healing... not.. in the spirit of debate..

I would not feel comfortable.. with what I did last night... unless it was for help...

And.. you have helped.. and others have too... Thank you..

I have forgiven my mother, my father and my ex-husband.. because.. of their own horrific backgrounds.. their hurting me.. in part came from ignorance... from a day in age when there was no help.. no knowledge like there is in today's world.. We have the net... we have pdocs, Ts... MD's... self-help books, medications.. just resources that were not available to them..
It does not excuse them... however, I have reached a point of forgiving...

My pedophile.... I work at it.... in my "brain".... I say... and mean.. that if he is contrite.. and God.. as judge.. can see that in his heart - then.. it is not up to me.. I put my life in His hands...

The emotional "me"... sees my life in totality... and... it.. just is hard... because of my many problems.. that I have today.... not being able to have a meaningful relationship... the nightmares.. the anxiety... the eating disorder... all of the problems....

and.. I guess... my continual fight to not give up... going day after day... fighting the fight to stay on this earth...

when I look.. at this.. it is hard...

In the end... I go with my brain... because it reflects "who".. I am... really and truely...