I canceled the interview because I couldn't see spending the money, at $4.07 a gallon, to drive 3 hours and sell myself when I have no faith whatsoever in my abilities....and I'm on short-term disability for now from the job I currently have, although they only have to hold the position open for me for 3 months and I fully expect to get canned on day 1 of week 13. It makes me nauseous to even consider going back right now, so that would really be OK, I think.

I'm working on applying for federal disability, too -- it's amazing, looking back, that I have lasted as long as I have in the workforce, for as much as my mental health has screwed things up for me. And now I have all these lovely physical problems too.

And you're right, I'm not going to hear anything positive about myself, probably for some time.