I am and wonder why am I here? Is my life so bad that I need to pay someone to stroke me, pat me on the back, only say good things to me etc... I admit I HATE ME! I do not see how my self hate will change by listening to a Therapist say good things to me. Will I ever heal or is Healing when death comes? I read all the posts on here and Wonder if anyone feels so low like I do? I am a Mom to a 4 yr old and 16 month old and I go for them! I do not want to screw them up.