here I go again, another sad night. I try to listen to music to help, but it seems to make me worse. Most of my music makes me recall memories that make me sad. If it was a bad memory it makes me feel bad, if it was a good memory, it makes me feel bad because I don't get to have that happiness anymore. No matter what I try to do, it makes me sad. I doubt anyone or anything will ever help i dont know.