I definitely understand that Beadlady, nothing feeling real happens quite often to me. I know LOGICALLY that things must BE real and tell myself stuff like 'I'm doing x now, it really is happening and I really am not imagining this and I really do exist' but much of the time I end up very much living in the present, unable to imagine the future and unable to properly remember the past and relate it to myself. I'm sorry you're going through this.