Thanks, you are right.....I am trying to keep from telling myself that I don't matter....very hard!

I understand about letting it trickle out because I do explode if I keep too much in too long! That scares me when it happens. *sigh*

I will try to let something out at T. I was thinking last night about how I hold back so much as to avoid talking. Then I remembered that the entire reason FOR therapy is to work through the bad stuff to help me FEEL better and all I am doing is making myself feel worse by locking everything inside.

Also, I am throwing my money out the window if I don't talk....I don't have money to throw away!

BJ