I'd just love to hear or read an honest discussion on the topics of jealousy and self-righteousness as a start. It feels as if people are rarely really honest with each other.

On the therapist issue, is it rude to ask for a free first time meeting? I keep thinking that I'll go through 10 therapists and waste a lot of money trying to find someone I feel comfortable with. I think most people/therapist will:
a. try to minimize what I feel
b. think I'm arrogant and give me a look of, "Just who do you think you are, lady?" or
c. blame me for the bad behavior of others

I'm convinced I bring out the worst in people, even a therapist. I'd rather find some sensitivity training that helps me understand people better.